September 28, 2011

  • Icebreaker

    It's 2:37am and trying to keep up with some reading to not fall behind in my studies. Just did some jump ropes to keep the blood pumping and my mind active and awake. (This is after coffee stopped working)

    Anyhow, I was planning to write this earlier in the day but I have a bit of time right now so I'll do it now. 
    So yesterday, I was walking from Bauer to the Rec to pick up my bag and start heading home to finish some errands etc. and as I was walking there, Tommy's mom called me and I picked up. Coincidentally, I turned around and looked around a bit and wasn't really paying attention to the people around me but then I looked to my left and I saw May walking up a different path. Anyhow, as I looked in her direction, I noticed her immediately look away kind of and go a different way into the path. I was going to wave at her and smile while I was on the phone but she looked away and I missed my chance. I felt shitty as heck because I didn't call out to her and say hi to break the ice.

    Anyhow, after the phone call, I felt kind of bad because the phone call wasn't a very good call and I'll go into detail with that another time. But anyways, I hated how there's awkwardness between her and I. I just wanted to be normal friends with her again without any awkwardness so when I walked inside, I saw her and her bf nathan sitting on the tables to the side. So I headed into the lockers and picked up my stuff first and after I walked back out, I walked over to their table and made the first move and said Hi to them both. Nathan seemed like he was kind of pissed but I didn't care. I was being friendly and just played it cool and May seemed surprised at first to see me just come up to them like that but I feel like i made a lil natural smile come out of her which made me feel good. Anyhow, after a small bit of chit chat, I quickly made my exit to avoid any kind of awkwardness but I feel as if I've broken the ice that's been there full of awkwardness over a long period of time.

    I'm glad I said hi to her today. It made me feel good.