So uh…..This new Xanga is feelin a bit weird…

WHAT TO DO!!?!?!?!?

In this world of the internet today, we’ve evolved into a different in my perspective. 

The Two C’s of the internet involve 

- Consumption

- Contribution

In the 80′s to 90′s, was when the computing world and the internet was rapidly growing. I was born in this 90′s era and grew up around all this tech and was fortunate enough to be able to experience and learn the awesomeness of how to use some old school tech such as DOS and Win 3.1 which are some of the pioneers to the windows computing world today. During this time period, people are mainly learning how to adapt and use the internet and whatnot and contributing to the computing world as we know it today. I didn’t get to dive into the programming aspect which is where I am lagging today but am working to get back up to pace as my career is going to depend on my arsenal of IT Knowledge so now, I am in a phase where it is my turn to contribute back to the world. I guess this blog that I started a long time ago is somewhat how I contribute to it through my thought processes and opinions. 

But anyhow, in order for the world of computing and the internet to grow, there must always be continuous process development and contribution. Without this, there cannot be growth and the internet will be filled with sublime trolls and whatnot

And this Leads to the 2nd C of the internet. Consumption

In this generation where we grow up with smart phones, tablets, and mobility, everything is taken on the go. No more gameboys, PSP’s, nor handheld games anymore. 

There a lot of mobile things that are where people just use to watch videos, interact with social networks and whatnot and read on the net rather than do real computing/work. Just some food for thought as to how much people use their consumer devices nowadays throughout the day. We are in an environment where a lot of marketing in the tech world is towards a consumption based environment as opposed to a production based environment which leads to my thought of consumption = couch potatoes.

So the question that’s recently passed through my mind is can there be a balance between the preferences of consumption based and contribution based?

Soo! Xanga lives!

And I got a new phone with a pretty decent camera just in time. How awesome  Gonna be posting up some pics every once in a while now hopefully somethin interesting haha.

Nokia Lumia 920

Holla at yo boy!

AY

It’s been an outlet for me to vent. Truthfully, it screwed me over in my very first relationship which is my one regret due to a foolish mistake on me to begin with, but I am to blame. Not xanga. It has taught me to be a better person and to live life o the fullest. I’m moving on to wordpress or blog spot.  Good bye to xanga. It’s been a wonderful 11 years.
   

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Feelin kind of overwhelmed in terms of finances. The things I do for my family……

My adviser at UH talked to me recently within his past month. I always enjoy talking to him. He’s an extremely motivational person and I feel I can relate to him on a lot of levels because he’s also an athlete. Not only that, he was a pro-baller back then in an Euro League or something I don’t know. Anyhow, he has recently been possibly diagnosed with a muscular disease maybe but I think that has passed and he may be OK now. 

We were on a subject of stress one day and he was explaining to me how people are so stressed all the time when it’s completely unnecessary like some of his students that call him. One of my favorite things that I learned from him is that 

“Stress is only something that one brings on themselves. Other than that, it is completely un-necessary as long as you have the right mind-set.” – Jonathan Hill

When he told me that, my mind was blown because it was so true, that reality itself is just a facade to one’s control and willingness to move forward. Every time I feel stressed, I try and think back about the wise words of my advisor. But yet, I can’t help but feel overwhelmed and crushed at times to a flooding brink of indescribable emotions waiting to stampede against the floodgates of my minds barrier.

So I used to drive a 95 Integra. This thing was my life. I put my blood sweat and tears into this car and only to have it stolen from me multiple times, and broken down into pieces only for me to put it back together again putting a strain on me financially every time. It came to a point where I had no choice but to get rid of it after recovering it in pieces from being stolen the 2nd time

At this time, my car was probably in it’s peak condition. I miss my car like crazy. No matter how beat up it was from my families abuse, I always put it back together and no other car ran as well nor tuned for the amount of money I put into it. I probably miss it so much because I put so much of my effort into it that it hurts me to see it butchered up and abused, neglected due to uncontrollable circumstances 

Anyhow, so I’ve broken down on the road many times before due to mechanical issues of the car being old or whatnot but I’ve always fixed everything up and the car was extremely depending, and stable because of my suspension upgrades etc. I’ve had people just come out of nowhere to help me push the car out of the road when I was stranded at times because it wouldn’t re-start even when I didn’t ask anyone to help me and it was God’s grace that people were gracious enough to help me in the middle of the road at times. 

So today, I saw an accident on bellaire or whatever and I thought that the people’s car wouldn’t start and so I pulled over the road and parked in a lot to help push their car out of the way but turns out they are just waiting for a police to come by to file the fender bender those people were involved in. (BASTARDS! MAKING TRAFFIC FOR ME! jk…) But yeah, it felt like the right thing to do to help them push the car out of the way regardless of the situation. But there was no need to

So I’ve been part of Xanga since 2002. Can you believe that I’ve been using this for over 10 years?! That’s crazy. I remember when this craze first started back in middle school, I jacked this username from an acquantince(old friend somewhat) because I thought it was cool and it was a slick name back then because of all the A-Z-N pride and everything. And also, this guy was pretty cool in my childhood youth so you know how it is, eveyrone wants to be like the cool kid sometimes lol. At least the losers did

  But anyhow, I don’t blog as much nor do I write as much as I used to. But I find that in times of need, I have no one to talk to nor to vent about stuff so I always find my way back here to write. This has always been my go-to place to let out all my thoughts when I can’t freely talk them out and the thought of Xanga no longer being available kinda sucks. I don’t know which blogging platform I would go to. So I made a contribution today for the 5 year membership(If Xanga doesn’t meet the goal, I won’t get charged for it ). I would hate to not have Xanga to come back to anymore in the future

240 smackeroons. Ya’ll must think I’m bonkers to actually pay to blog….

I don’t know how to title this post but anyhow, gonna go with it while my memories still fresh. 

Just got off the bus to UH and chillin at the rec for a bit right now. I must say, this past year or so has been an extremely humbling experience. Having what most people didn’t have to having nothing has opened my mind a lot. Because there are a lot of people out there striving for so much more and working with so much less. It is a blessing just to have food on the table and be able to enjoy life as it goes and strive for something better without worrying about materialistic things. I saw today when I was on the bus about to get off to UH, a mother and son stepped onto the bus. They were in a really happy/joyful mood together it seemed. The son was about maybe 11? 12? Not sure. Anyhow, both of them had their eyes closed and the son was leaning his head on his mothers shoulder and mother head on sons head. Both had their eyes closed with a smile on their face and it just made me think of how blissfully happy they were in life.

Made me happy/angry at the same time because although I was brought up in that type of environment where I had majority of what I needed provided for me, I guess you could say that a father figure, a role model, Someone I could look up to in my life I was lacking the most. I’ve been a prisoner of my own convictions for a long time and I probably still will be for a very long time. My father I guess you could say tried to encourage me/ give me advice and support me in things that I wanted to do at times but he wasn’t good at all in the encouraging part. He was a very convicting and judgmental person which probably instills that part of a persona in me also. Every time someone asked me what my father did for a living, I wouldn’t know what to say to them. I was so embarrassed/ashamed that I couldn’t give an answer that I would be very angry at myself and the world and want to strive to prove to the world what I am made of. I always had something to prove. I feel like I still do. I don’t know why.

But seeing this mother and son made me feel happy for them because it seems as though they are both striving for a better life and giving it their all even though I know nothing about them at all. I don’t know. When we rolled up a the University which was my stop just now, the sons eyes lit up with excitement and started looking around his environment with curiosity. I wanted to talk to him and know more about him and give him encouragement or whatnot. The Sky is the limit. This is my favorite line because there is opportunity as long as you create it, and work for it. This caused a bit of nostalgic bliss for me because seeing that sense of natural excitement, happiness, and curiosity in what the world has to offer has made me question what is my role in life? What does God have planned for me?

One of the things my Pastor Sam who is also a good friend of mine and a role model that I look up to ultimately, talked to me one time and I remember this distinctly because I feel like its so true. That God is speaking to me in many ways and that I try to respond but am having difficulty doing so.

So lately, I’ve been cleaning my garage. I should have taken a before picture but all I have is the after after I cleaned lol.

Enjoy the cluttery goodness. Kinetic Cycles coming soon.