It’s been an outlet for me to vent. Truthfully, it screwed me over in my very first relationship which is my one regret due to a foolish mistake on me to begin with, but I am to blame. Not xanga. It has taught me to be a better person and to live life o the fullest. I’m moving on to wordpress or blog spot. Good bye to xanga. It’s been a wonderful 11 years.
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My adviser at UH talked to me recently within his past month. I always enjoy talking to him. He’s an extremely motivational person and I feel I can relate to him on a lot of levels because he’s also an athlete. Not only that, he was a pro-baller back then in an Euro League or something I don’t know. Anyhow, he has recently been possibly diagnosed with a muscular disease maybe but I think that has passed and he may be OK now.
We were on a subject of stress one day and he was explaining to me how people are so stressed all the time when it’s completely unnecessary like some of his students that call him. One of my favorite things that I learned from him is that
“Stress is only something that one brings on themselves. Other than that, it is completely un-necessary as long as you have the right mind-set.” – Jonathan Hill
When he told me that, my mind was blown because it was so true, that reality itself is just a facade to one’s control and willingness to move forward. Every time I feel stressed, I try and think back about the wise words of my advisor. But yet, I can’t help but feel overwhelmed and crushed at times to a flooding brink of indescribable emotions waiting to stampede against the floodgates of my minds barrier.
So I used to drive a 95 Integra. This thing was my life. I put my blood sweat and tears into this car and only to have it stolen from me multiple times, and broken down into pieces only for me to put it back together again putting a strain on me financially every time. It came to a point where I had no choice but to get rid of it after recovering it in pieces from being stolen the 2nd time
At this time, my car was probably in it’s peak condition. I miss my car like crazy. No matter how beat up it was from my families abuse, I always put it back together and no other car ran as well nor tuned for the amount of money I put into it. I probably miss it so much because I put so much of my effort into it that it hurts me to see it butchered up and abused, neglected due to uncontrollable circumstances 
Anyhow, so I’ve broken down on the road many times before due to mechanical issues of the car being old or whatnot but I’ve always fixed everything up and the car was extremely depending, and stable because of my suspension upgrades etc. I’ve had people just come out of nowhere to help me push the car out of the road when I was stranded at times because it wouldn’t re-start even when I didn’t ask anyone to help me and it was God’s grace that people were gracious enough to help me in the middle of the road at times.
So today, I saw an accident on bellaire or whatever and I thought that the people’s car wouldn’t start and so I pulled over the road and parked in a lot to help push their car out of the way but turns out they are just waiting for a police to come by to file the fender bender those people were involved in. (BASTARDS! MAKING TRAFFIC FOR ME! jk…) But yeah, it felt like the right thing to do to help them push the car out of the way regardless of the situation. But there was no need to 
So I’ve been part of Xanga since 2002. Can you believe that I’ve been using this for over 10 years?! That’s crazy. I remember when this craze first started back in middle school, I jacked this username from an acquantince(old friend somewhat) because I thought it was cool and it was a slick name back then because of all the A-Z-N pride and everything. And also, this guy was pretty cool in my childhood youth so you know how it is, eveyrone wants to be like the cool kid sometimes lol. At least the losers did 
But anyhow, I don’t blog as much nor do I write as much as I used to. But I find that in times of need, I have no one to talk to nor to vent about stuff so I always find my way back here to write. This has always been my go-to place to let out all my thoughts when I can’t freely talk them out and the thought of Xanga no longer being available kinda sucks. I don’t know which blogging platform I would go to. So I made a contribution today for the 5 year membership(If Xanga doesn’t meet the goal, I won’t get charged for it ). I would hate to not have Xanga to come back to anymore in the future 
240 smackeroons. Ya’ll must think I’m bonkers to actually pay to blog….
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