First off, I really need a camera so I can illustrate what goes on daily more often and have more interesting updates...

 

So anyways, been doin some reading lately and it has been in my mind for a long time already but I feel I need to highlight this. So for a long time since the days of Napster and Kazaa, Morpheus or whatnot, it has been in everyone's 2nd nature to obtain songs and video's and whatnot including "you know who" *cough cough*. So as an adolescent, my views on this would be people do this because it is a free way to avoid paying for a song and you would save yourself more money. As I like to support the asian community more, as I grew older I would view things as actually supporting the music industry by buying the actual cd or songs instead of finding alternative ways to do so. 

The more I go into globalization and studying more into economics and business, it becomes more and more to my attention the actual importance of doing things "the right" way.  Why? Because it spurs growth in our economy and it would support our aspiring asian artists and community to grow by putting money in their pockets.

BUT!... There's a pro to this side. In all forms of piracy and counterfeiting.  It makes innovation and growth in all sorts of ways such as programming, development, app development, skill, audio reproduction, brand awarement, 

and so many other more things that I cannot think of at the moment. BUT the point being to put it short, is that it opens a door to so many different advances. Whether it be for the good or the bad. Heck, so many skilled people have come out of the curiosity of just wanting to break the rules or trying to save money. Take a look at the notorious hacking group "Anonymous" for example. 

 

They are filled with many skilled program developers and hackers that exploit many holes and security breaches in many different companies and organizations such as Warner Music Group, and CBS. When they just wiped it clean that one time. 

But it comes down to this. Even though it means doing the right thing to pay for things the right way and supporting your fellow community, when it comes down to it,  we're broke as hell unless your already in the working class and making a stable income. What would you do?

Thoughts and input appreciated. 

Feel like I'm a failure at life. I can't pursue what I want to pursue. Have a shit ton of debt. And I failed my 1st 3 exams for the semester. Gonna be difficult to recover from this. And I'm about to lose a job that I need but don't even want. Just crashed my car yesterday cause some bus cut in front of me. Fck.

Sometimes, it's best to keep thoughts and emotions to yourself. Why? No one will understand them better than yourself but then again, human emotions need the consolation to control those emotions bottled up inside otherwise, one day you will self destruct.

Xanga is the one place I keep myself from self destructing. <3 you XangA!!! 

Bout to hit up the gym right now with Anvinh and Vince.

Man. I feel so perplexed right now. Words cannot describe my feelings. I had one of the best nights of my life last night at a friends wedding and have I got to say, it was a good night. It feels good to be able to walk up full of confidence everywhere you go because it definitely is a boost of morale, but I feel that it's stripped away right now because at the wedding, I met this girl Man. We danced and I feel like she might be feelin me also. Got her number and everything and wanted to take her out on a date the full shabang. But man. can't do it at this time. Girls in my life will only just complicate things up at this time being but it sucks because I really wanna get to know this girl. A couple of my buddies gave me some advice and that I should just lay low for now, and another one told me there's no friends in the beginning. You either play your cards all in, or your all out and I gotta say. I can't agree with them more. Sucks ass...Words can't describe how I feel right now. Lost.

 

Time to pump some iron.

So officially, tomorrow will be the end of the year. All I have to say is that this year has literally zoomed by so fast. I've grown so much and learned so much in my life that looking back on this year, it's amazing that it's gone already. Time really does fly. I hope I can achieve my dreams and goals and foremost, be able to put God first in my life before everything. I've been slacking as a Christian but I always have God in my heart and I know for a fact that he looks after me even when I least expect it in so many ways. I've met so many new people this year and as my first actual full time semester at University of Houston, it has really been a great semester as I was able to become a part of the school when it's on the rise in so many ways. I feel so grateful that I have all my friends and family.

As 2012 approaches, It will be the year of the dragon in the chinese lunar calendar. As I was born in 1988, I am also a dragon. I can't help but feel a lot of pride that the year of the dragon is here, and I feel in all aspects of my life, that this is my year. The year that I will break all barriers and be able to take a huge leap forward in life. This is my time. The year of the dragon.

 

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So lately, I've been trying many different times of oil for my car. Today, I tried the Shell Rotella Synthetic Blend 10W30, and o.m.g.....This is the best condition I feel my motors ever been. The motor is so smooth when driving and it purrs like a kitten. I can't believe the feeling of this type of oil and man. All I have to say is that it's defeated the myths of using synthetic oil in a high mileage engine so far. We'll see if I develop an oil leak soon enough...Anyhow, the myth is, that Synthetic oil is no good for high mileage engines because it is too slick and will cause the seals to go bad on the engine making it leak. I've had my gaskets and seals changed religiously so we'll see how well this engine will hold up. But man...I love my car. No matter how banged up it looks, the car drives mechanically good. It's not in the best condition that it can be, but man...It is a fighter is all I have to say.

 

 

Where does the source of motivation come from? Where does one's dreams and ambition come from? Do they get the drive for success from competition? From revenge? Pride? Self-Satisfaction? To take care of their family?

Everyone dreams and thinks philosophically about those things.

I want to be a do'er. Not a thinker.

For me. This is my drive. 

It's 2:37am and trying to keep up with some reading to not fall behind in my studies. Just did some jump ropes to keep the blood pumping and my mind active and awake. (This is after coffee stopped working)

Anyhow, I was planning to write this earlier in the day but I have a bit of time right now so I'll do it now. 
So yesterday, I was walking from Bauer to the Rec to pick up my bag and start heading home to finish some errands etc. and as I was walking there, Tommy's mom called me and I picked up. Coincidentally, I turned around and looked around a bit and wasn't really paying attention to the people around me but then I looked to my left and I saw May walking up a different path. Anyhow, as I looked in her direction, I noticed her immediately look away kind of and go a different way into the path. I was going to wave at her and smile while I was on the phone but she looked away and I missed my chance. I felt shitty as heck because I didn't call out to her and say hi to break the ice.

Anyhow, after the phone call, I felt kind of bad because the phone call wasn't a very good call and I'll go into detail with that another time. But anyways, I hated how there's awkwardness between her and I. I just wanted to be normal friends with her again without any awkwardness so when I walked inside, I saw her and her bf nathan sitting on the tables to the side. So I headed into the lockers and picked up my stuff first and after I walked back out, I walked over to their table and made the first move and said Hi to them both. Nathan seemed like he was kind of pissed but I didn't care. I was being friendly and just played it cool and May seemed surprised at first to see me just come up to them like that but I feel like i made a lil natural smile come out of her which made me feel good. Anyhow, after a small bit of chit chat, I quickly made my exit to avoid any kind of awkwardness but I feel as if I've broken the ice that's been there full of awkwardness over a long period of time.

I'm glad I said hi to her today. It made me feel good. 

Lord. Please. Give me strength and persistence to resist these temptations that are coming before me to this day. Please. Help me to make the right decision and not jeopardize my entire life right now. Help me to resist from these types of things that may take me astray from everything that you have in plan for me. 

Oh man. Where do I even begin?!? All I have to say is this weekend was definitely one to remember. So to start, our men's 4.0 tennis team at Chancellors (Ace Kings) made it to State Sectionals for a chance to grab a spot into Nationals! And our team played tough, but due to a hiccup in one of our lineups, we fell short slightly. Our record in our round robin bracket was 3-1 and another team was undefeated so that left us falling short. But it was definitely filled with fun and a lot of food. I ate so much unhealthy food this weekend it's not even funny  
Anyhow, I mentioned In n Out Burgers and my buddy Kim was like "Kneega shut yo face. I have a whole LIST that we're gonna hit up when we get to dallas"
and sure enough, the fatness began. That first night, we ate at In n Out burgers and man. Was it good.

List of food places I ate at
- Japan House
- In n Out Burgers (3 times)
- Chef's Point Cafe (Fine dining in a Gas Station)
- All Good Cafe

Japan House, I have to say is wayy better than tokyo one. But the night we went there wasn't that good because the fire alarm went off and water went all over the food. In n Out Burgers man. It was pretty damn good but not like WOW. But pretty damn addicting. This place All Good Cafe, I've got to say they've got some pretty damn good breakfast food. It wasn't bad at all. The chicken fried steak was indeed the best that I've ever had.

And to top it off, Chef's Point Cafe, OMG! This place is literally the best place that I've ate at. The food was so good. So the story goes that this chef is a world re-known chef and he was featured all over the food network and everything. He started off poor and the restaurant was so small in the gas station but pretty soon, it expanded out to filling almost the entire station and man. This was a pretty damn good restaurant I've got to say. The food was A-M-A-zing. If anyone ever goes to Dallas, TX you've got to hit this place up. Order the what'nots and the stuffed pork pasta. It was the shizzle.

When we were partying it up, man. It was a crazy night. Dallas is full of drama is all I have to say lol. So we hit up a pretty popular club called Bella-32 which is like Roxy kind of but it was pretty damn nice over there. They played some pretty good music but man. There was a fight outside the club afterwards and this guy tried to beat up a girl! So then like 6 pairs of hands just crab this guy and 2 guys beat the crap out of him and he was pretty swole. and then we have this other guy get chased by 2 other guys in the parking lot which was hilarious as hell and another kneega goes FCK THIS! I'M GOING TO CLEAN OUT A FOOL'S TRUNK ( He didn't actually say that but imagine him saying that haha) and he goes ballistic and starts clearing this guys trunk out and throwing everything on the floor lol. IT was funny was heck. And then another fool almost gets run over. Afterwards, this guy that almost ran him over gets his window busted open at the light. Man so much drama. If anyone ever asks me this stuff in person, I'll explain it better because it's just a lot to type lol

We went to Good Time Karaoke afterwards. More drama.

Overall, this trip was pretty damn fun and good. A weekend vacation. Next season, gonna make it to nationals for sure.
On to some pictures.

 

LB Houston. One of the playing site's.

Tuan Serving

 

Minh hitting a forehand return. This guy can serve Right and Left Handed

One Sexy Ass Mofo.

Dallas' best Chicken Fried Steak

George and his Girlfriend

A couple more of our team members (Mr. Young, Mrs. Sunny, Iris, Louis, and Michael)

 

Our Team Captain Joseph

Chef's Point Cafe

6:30pm and it's packed full house

The What'nots. Must order

In n out

Packed like crazy that day. You gotta see it to believe it.

Some of the team

 

Our Hotel room

Homies Aadrian and Paul

 

Some more of the team.

 

For the rest of the pictures, click here 

For some weird reason, I've been having trouble sleeping these past couple of nights. I don't know why. I would wake up super hungry one night, and the other night, i'd be pretty wary of things and check on my car and tonight, same thing. I feel like something weird is going on.