June 17, 2009

  • Thoughts

    It has been awhile since I have updated.

    Lately, a lot of thoughts have always been going through my head. I always think about so many things. But sometimes, I think its better to be strong and just push those thoughts out and just let things flow the way they're meant to be because if you keep on thinking about it, your mind will dwell on things like what could have or what could have not been or whatever. Man. It's so weird because every day I wake up, Victoria is the first person I think about and the last before I go to sleep. Thats how big of an effect that she has on me I guess you could say haha. This is not an infatuation. She makes my drive for my ambitions go crazy. She makes me want to better myself so much more. Sometimes, the smallest words from one person can mean so much to another.  It can increase ones motivation, ambition, spirit or whatnot by tenfold.

    Ugh. I want to just come home to houston. I miss houston so much. I'm just counting the days until the day I come back to houston. I feel so attached to it. Because its so far away, but yet I can't come back within one day like a place like Austin or College Station it sucks. If I ever went to UT for college, I think I would literally be driving back every weekend because I love everything about houston so much. This upcoming semester. I pray that I'll be strong and be able to carry out my plans in school. I have to. I really do. I really don't want to fail. It's essential that I get through school.

    Last week, I had a talk with one of my Uncles GF's sons. His name is edward. He made me realize a lot of important things in life. One of those things is a fraternity. He made me realize the importance of having a brotherhood. A social network that you can depend on to help you in life. Although he was a model student and graduated and got a degree, there are somethings in life that he regretted that he didn't do which was experience the college life the way it is and not look back on it with regrets. Also, he mentioned to me that it was "essential" that you must have a mentor to help you get through your career whatever it may be. So my goal is to find a mechanical engineer as a mentor. He also said work for free if you must LOL. Thats going to be really hard . Especially in such a demanding place like houston haha. But I'm goign to try and follow his advice because I feel that his advice is very useful.

    No matter what happens. I have to be strong. All I want is happiness. Not just for me. So if me getting hurt is what it takes for happiness for her. Then so be it. I'll be strong and take it in no matter what. That's just how love works I guess. It can painful, or something thats everlasting. GG.

     

    I'm off to go exploring cleveland, ohio again now. Peace out. I'll update with pictures later I guess.

    By the way. I need a new phone. Ugh. I've had my phone for so long. I just want a new one even though it works perfectly fine haha