To start off, lately there's this girl that I've known since I was a weeeee little boy. Her and I were never close and I guess you could say we never talked much and if we did, I don't think she liked talking to me and she wasn't really that friendly I don't think or maybe I was too weird to her lol. But yeah, she showed up at my friend Elena's thanksgiving thing one day because she's pretty good friends with some of the people there and ever since then, she's been on my mind. Can you say haha.

Last night, I ended up goin to roxy. I expected us to chill at genji's which is this karaoke place that's pretty good. But yeah, when I went to roxy I saw her there! and another one of my friends that I least expected to see there haha. So yeah, when I asked her to dance, she was like "oh...we're about to go get drinks right now." So I was like aightt. cool.  Next time then! I should've just said save me a dance later or somethin haha. That way, it would be more sure of ll

But you know how us guys, we sometimes think that we're getting turned down and they may be making an excuse or maybe not. I don't know. But the feeling of rejection is still there haha. alsjdfkasdfl;askldfklasjdf.

aiyAAAAA! Gotta pull it together! GG.

anyways. end of the year is almost here. update later.

To start off, lately there's this girl that I've known since I was a weeeee little boy. Her and I were never close and I guess you could say we never talked much and if we did, I don't think she liked talking to me and she wasn't really that friendly I don't think or maybe I was too weird to her lol. But yeah, she showed up at my friend Elena's thanksgiving thing one day because she's pretty good friends with some of the people there and ever since then, she's been on my mind. Can you say haha.

Last night, I ended up goin to roxy. I expected us to chill at genji's which is this karaoke place that's pretty good. But yeah, when I went to roxy I saw her there! and another one of my friends that I least expected to see there haha. So yeah, when I asked her to dance, she was like "oh...we're about to go get drinks right now." So I was like aightt. cool.  Next time then! I should've just said save me a dance later or somethin haha. That way, it would be more sure of ll

But you know how us guys, we sometimes think that we're getting turned down and they may be making an excuse or maybe not. I don't know. But the feeling of rejection is still there haha. alsjdfkasdfl;askldfklasjdf.

aiyAAAAA! Gotta pull it together! GG.

anyways. end of the year is almost here. update later.

Man. I'm scared to shit just to look at my bank account statements. Looking at them just makes me want to shoot myself.

wOOOO! Just came home from the MSF Course!

Motorcycle Safety Foundation.

Mann....it was funnnn as hell. finally got to ride a lot and it was a good experience. Learned a lot. I'm tired as hell though. being there all day and that long ass drive back and forth didn't help. I had to take a short nap in my car because I was tired as hell and didn't want to deal with the bumper to bumper traffic haha. When I woke up and started heading home, the traffic was clear lucky me!

Tired as hell. Gotta go back again tommorow and then I get my motorcycle license soon

Lotta things been happening. Something in particular happened last week that had my mind buzzing and thinking a lot. It stirred up my emotions quite a bit.

It's been a while since I been on xanga. Been too busy with everything else in life lol. anyways,

damn. I been trying and working hard to get a motorcycle. Hopefully, I can get it. This month is going to go by so slow. All I think about all the time is just the motorcycle lol. I rode bens bike today. Man. This is just more fuel for my speed addiction lol All I can do is just think of it all the time. Shoot. I even dream about it in my sleep pulling out of corners speeding up fast and alksjdfaksdflkaf...I was dreaming about it during my nap today and was so happy lol. When I woke up, I was like damn...back to reality.

Hopefully, I can get A BIKE soon. ughh...So sad. Anyways, gotta study up. Finals next week and test tommorow mornign. Gotta crunch up.

vrOOM VVROOM!

Tonight at roxy was going good...perfect. I was havin fun. drinkin with my boys and girls. had fun with my boys.

and then....some girls friend was a complete bitch towards me. and completely ruined my night. I was trying to be nice. and make sure that someone was ok. and then this person has to completely shut me down and say something that sounded pretty offending to me. Excuse my language. I USUALLY do not curse like this at all but this night has me pretty pissed off. Ugh...It started out good too.

Today was the funeral for my grandma. She had passed away on tuesday at 1:19 pm. R.I.P. I miss her a lot. I wish things could go back to the way we were when I was a kid with my sister and my cousins. Those were the golden years when everything was literally almost carefree and family was the most important aspect in life.

Today and yesterday during the funeral and the wake, everyone was really sad. Some of my relatives were crying like crazy. Me. I feel cold hearted. I didn't shed a tear at all. I was sad but for some reason, I didn't shed a tear. I rarely ever shed tears when people pass away = not even for kevin. I don't know why but I feel so cold hearted because I don't. Is it wrong for that to happen?

*sigh*. I really miss my grandma. I'll see her again one day in heaven with all the loved ones in my life.
My cousin told me yesterday that she could help me to find a job in a school thats pretty good pay! I really want to take that job but I don't know if I can't because there's the complication of my mom not having a ride home after work because I'm going to be busy working and I'm not going to be able to be there to pick her up. *sigh*. My mom really wants me to concentrate in school right now and I really want to concentrate in school also. But then again, I also really want to make some money and hurry up and pay off my credit card bills and get a bike soon. I really really want to ride badly. I just want to. Even if it's by myself.

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Just got home from roxy just now and just freshened up. Getting ready to go to sleep. Man. I wasn't even plannign to go but I went for my friend Alex because he was feelin down. He felt sad because he just had a breakup with the girl he loves that he's been with for like, 4 years. Crazy eh? Anyways, it was really fun for me tonight after TJ bought me a beer. Ugh. After that, I just wanted to keep on goin and it turned out to be really fun. I was just jammin and I kind of had a buzz going on I think? I don't know. I Was just jamming to the music and dancing. I ended up starting a battle on the dance floor and everyone crowded around and was watching us it made me kind of feel good because it was something really random that even I didn't expect myself to do and i turned out wowing the crowds??!? I feel like I suck because I was just playing around haha. who knows. maybe I acted a fool and just didn't feel it because i was on a high for life that made me happy haha. It was really fun. I wish my friend alex could feel better though and he and esther would get back together because I just can't imagine them being apart. It's just that hard.

Also, today was merylle's birthday dinner! I baked her a cake and she loved it  I'm a good baker . Man , I wish I had a camera aha. She was happy because no one had ever baked a cake for her before! anyways, today was an ok day besides the funeral. I feel as if I wasted my workout from this morning because I feel fat right now from eating so much today -.-

Need to start tennising it up again SOON. Anyways, for today sunday, gonna study it up after church. Give me strength lord to be strong and have a strong will and concentration. Man. I'm really thankful for everyone in my life. Elena and my college smallgroup found out about my grandma's death and they gave me a card expressing their condolences. I was really surprised and it made me feel good. I feel blessed to have people care for me like that. I really need to thank god and try to return the same feelings back to everyone in my small group! I look forward to seeing them every week because they help to make me strong.

Gonna hit the sheets now cause i'm kind of tired. Good night people.

So here is something pretty funny yesterday that just had me cracking up. This image event will be burned in my mind forever and I will always be recalling it for good laughs.

So yesterday, I was driving down harwin and then I spotted my cousin and his family at the park so I decided to drop in on them. I walked with them for a bit and I was having a pretty deep conversation with my aunt and she was helping to cheer me up. She was saying I could have you to do this or mow the lawn or take care of christopher or whatever but I know your responsibilities and how hard it is for you growing up like this.

and then out of nowhere my cousin blurts out

"YEAH YEAH! DO IT ALEX! SCRATCH MY BUTT/ASS" and then that just makes me turn around , stare at him and I bursted out laughing. that was hilariously funny to me lol. I wish i had a recording of the conversation because that just blurts out of nowhere. lol.

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So anyways...life goes on. Gonna get my game on now. BRING IT!

Last week Friday, chilled with angie for a bit. I went out for a drive earlier that night on my own to clear my head because I was kind of burned out from studying. I was gonna call Angie out to go cruise with me but I had remembered that she had SAT's the next day. Hope she did well. Unexpectedly, she called me up during my nightly cruise to go chill so we chilled for a bit. It was pretty good. Haven't hung with her for a while. We had some pretty deep conversations I must say.
vroOOm Vroom.

I needs me a bike....

RIP to my homey Kevin Du.
Since today, it's going to have been 2 years since its passed. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about my best friend. I feel sad that he just left us all like that in a blink of an eye. But I know he's watching over us from above.

Yesterday, us guys met up and it felt good. We met up at the spot again and hi to kevin. gonna visit him again today at the temple. It was like old times but kevin was missing It was funny though cause when alan pulled in and started parking, I was like ay, I bet he's gonna run over that tapioca cup and then everyone was all like yeah or nawwww and then as he started backing into the spot, we were all like oh ohh..ohh. oh... OHHHHHHHHH right when he ran over the cup and then we all stuck our hands up like it was a TD touchdown when he ran over it and then he stuck out his head and was like WTF? ?!?!   LOL.

It felt good yesterday bein with the boys. hopefully, we can be close together as a group again.

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So lately had a lot of tests and stuff. did good on one, crap on another, and then , i don't konw the last one yet. DAMNIT! I was hoping to start off this semester strong . Oh well. more fuel for the fire! ADD OIL!

My car has been getting a lot of work done to it lately. Recently, just changed the oil, 4 new tires and alignment. Gonna have to change the inner tie rod soon. When I get that done, I'm gonna change out my suspension also to coilovers. So yeah, have a lot of work ahead of me.

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Single and ready to mingle. But then again, maybe now is not a good time for a gf? But it would be nice to have someone there for you.

I need a job right now. gonna find one pretty soon. Just a small flexible part time job that lets me do whatever the heck I want haha. Somewhat =p

so i've gotten tagged in this. And decided to give it a whirl.

CAN YOU GUESS WHICH ONE ISN'T TRUE!??

- I've practically explored the entire east coast

- I've gambled and won $300 in one bluff before (suCKAAAAA)

- Getting high makes me happy! (doesn't mean I do it though =p) But I'm not a smoker.

- I've never gone outside of this country

- I'm secretly speed racer

- My grades are so high they fly above the sky

- Tennis is my life.

- I own more cars than you can actually fit in a normal persons household.

- They call me shinobi because I'm like a ninja. I jump off buildings and can do crazy stunts -.-

- Pizza is my favorite food.

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life has been kind of on a cliff lately. Trying to work through it though. My good friend alvin has helped me out by motivating me. glad to have a friend that will help to pull you out of the gutter when your starting to fall in.

Hopefully, things will start to pick back up. I'm starting to feel a lot better nowadays. Just got through with 3 tests within these 2 days. crazy. it was stressful. I can relax a LITTLE bit but its time to pick it up back up again to do even better on the next ones. GG