So yeah. this is what we do in our spare time at the  restaurant when its boring LOL. FAIL.

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Its been a while since I've updated. Time seems to be passing by much faster now and I'm still countin down the days until I return to houston. I somewhat look forward to it, but then again, I feel as if once I return, all my problems will be biting me up the ass again. Who knows. I'll just try and deal with it.

 

Sometimes, when the going gets tough, the tough gets going and you just have to stick it out. I'm going to try my best and stick this out and see where it goes and hopefully, its the right choice I make. I love her and nothings going to change that. But if you have to let her go, then so be it.

Hopefully, I get what I want and i'll be able to fix my car fully when I get back to houston. Argh. All my friends are literally getting motorcycles now and I REALLY REALLY want one so badly. But stupid me, I'm so stubborn that I won't get one unless its the one I want and the one I want, I can't really afford and even if I could, my money is obligated to be directed towards something else  Aiya. Why can't I just win the lottery?

 

Anyways, really looking forward to starting the next semester and getting home. I have a lot of things I want to get done. I had a lot more things that I wanted to post but I forgot for now lol.

Oh. I forgot to post up this interesting vid my friend showed me the other day.

Did you know?

It has been awhile since I have updated.

Lately, a lot of thoughts have always been going through my head. I always think about so many things. But sometimes, I think its better to be strong and just push those thoughts out and just let things flow the way they're meant to be because if you keep on thinking about it, your mind will dwell on things like what could have or what could have not been or whatever. Man. It's so weird because every day I wake up, Victoria is the first person I think about and the last before I go to sleep. Thats how big of an effect that she has on me I guess you could say haha. This is not an infatuation. She makes my drive for my ambitions go crazy. She makes me want to better myself so much more. Sometimes, the smallest words from one person can mean so much to another.  It can increase ones motivation, ambition, spirit or whatnot by tenfold.

Ugh. I want to just come home to houston. I miss houston so much. I'm just counting the days until the day I come back to houston. I feel so attached to it. Because its so far away, but yet I can't come back within one day like a place like Austin or College Station it sucks. If I ever went to UT for college, I think I would literally be driving back every weekend because I love everything about houston so much. This upcoming semester. I pray that I'll be strong and be able to carry out my plans in school. I have to. I really do. I really don't want to fail. It's essential that I get through school.

Last week, I had a talk with one of my Uncles GF's sons. His name is edward. He made me realize a lot of important things in life. One of those things is a fraternity. He made me realize the importance of having a brotherhood. A social network that you can depend on to help you in life. Although he was a model student and graduated and got a degree, there are somethings in life that he regretted that he didn't do which was experience the college life the way it is and not look back on it with regrets. Also, he mentioned to me that it was "essential" that you must have a mentor to help you get through your career whatever it may be. So my goal is to find a mechanical engineer as a mentor. He also said work for free if you must LOL. Thats going to be really hard . Especially in such a demanding place like houston haha. But I'm goign to try and follow his advice because I feel that his advice is very useful.

No matter what happens. I have to be strong. All I want is happiness. Not just for me. So if me getting hurt is what it takes for happiness for her. Then so be it. I'll be strong and take it in no matter what. That's just how love works I guess. It can painful, or something thats everlasting. GG.

 

I'm off to go exploring cleveland, ohio again now. Peace out. I'll update with pictures later I guess.

By the way. I need a new phone. Ugh. I've had my phone for so long. I just want a new one even though it works perfectly fine haha

So last week, I posted something about somethings that a guy shouldn't say to a girl. Well I've been looking around and I've compiled a couple things that I think that a girl shouldn't say to a guy haha.

 "Nothing's wrong."
 "We need to talk."
These four words shut off a man's brain faster than long division. When men hear you say that they immediately go into flight mode. And anything they can do to get out of this conversation—and better yet, your apartment—they will. There are plenty of other ways to approach a delicate conversation, and getting us in a place where we feel comfortable is a good start.
"I just want to be friends."
"Do you think she's pretty?"

for the most part, I just googled these and copied and pasted haha. If theres anything more that should be added to the list from guys or whatever. message me up haha.

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Anyways, just slowly counting down the days until ohio is done with. Just trying to get done with it as soon as possible. I really wish i was in summer school right now. Oh well. My phone charger sucks ass. I need a new one.

I've been thinking lately. Sometimes, theres things that you want to say out, but then again, its better to keep them quiet at certain times. Because when you say something, it could affect something and add to trouble or whatnot. Lotta stuff buzzing around in houston right now ever since I left. It's kind of sad thinking about it. The future seems scary but it all depends on how you embrace it. I'm very optimistic so I'm cool with it.

I have such bad luck here in ohio. so far during my off days, its been super rainy all the damn time which sucks ass like crazy.Can't do crap. My favorite thing to do is go driving around so at least thats satisfying for me haha.

The other night at the restaurant, here was a drunk at the restaurant. It was crazy because he is a grown man but yet, he acts so crazy. We had to call the paramedics to drag his drunk self off the floor. He made such a mess that night but good thing it was close to closing time so that there wasn't any other customers around. It sucks being a waiter here because of the language barrier. Mainly because all the other waiters write their orders in chinese and I can't read chinese. Also, my chinese isn't even that fluid so I can't understand all orders that people say to me in chinese. Sucks ass. I'm only good at taking orders from the american people. Sucks being ABC. Makes me want to work even harder to learn chinese.

I miss practicing the piano. I'm definitly gonna re-enroll into piano classes again when I get back into houston.

Here's some more pictures of ohio.

I'm lazy to copy and paste everything separately so heres just a link to the album.
http://s14.photobucket.com/albums/a335/alexb0i/uncles%20house/?albumview=slideshow

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When i got onto the homepage of xanga, I read something pretty interesting. 20 things that you should never say to a girl.

1). Have you gained weight?
2). Just kidding... unless you wanna do it.
3). Relax, calm down or some variation thereof.
4). It looks like I forgot my wallet...
5). You're going to make some man so happy one day.
6). You have child-bearing hips.
7). Aren't you too old to cry?
8). You would look so much better if...
9). Hey, your mom's lookin' hot. 

10). Are you really going to eat that?
11). Did you cut your own hair/ Do your own nails/ Make that _____ yourself?
12). You look tired.
13). You need to exercise.
14). Want me to carry that?
15). You're taking too long...
16). Are you pregnant?
17). I like your ______; a lot of girls wear that now.
18). We need to talk....later.
19). You're being so sensitive!
20). Yeah, you look hungover.

So yeah. pretty interestinggg  I must say. I wonder whats the opinion from both sex's on these questions?

Man. Today is the first day that I have off today. And its a rainy ass day that sucksass. So my Uncles Girlfriend took me to this place a couple days ago called Koko Bakery. I guess I like the place because it ki nd of reminds me of the houston environment. Its  bakery/tapioca house. I like frequenting the bookstores around here. Just chilling there and freeloading off their books haha. Work is pretty hard. Sometimes so far, the time passes by fast. Sometimes, its really slow. Gay. I can't believe i'm going to be here in cleveland ohio for about 2 months and its only been about a week. ARgh...Oh well. I love driving around in my uncles car though haha. Yesterday, I went to this place called crocker park. its really nice. I like it. its one of the new urban development areas so its very new. Its a great hangout spot.

Describing work, i have to really get the hang of the menu down because that way, I can be a better waiter I guess.

Sometimes, I feel that this distance away from houston is good. at times, i just wanna go back. But i guess its best if I stick it out here for the time I have arranged. You know what they say. "Absence makes the heart grows fonder". In general for everything. Here's some pics of cleveland so far.

 
Koko Bakery. Nice place but pretty expensive I would think.

Here's the place crocker park that I visited.

The chase bank I went to today to do my business. Its locked down with security features pretty tight. When I tried to take pictures, they got pissed off at me haha. I realized something about this city. They like to build a lot of things with bricks which makes this place seem like an old type of city in a modernized era. Weird. time for them to update their style of buildings i think!

So yeah, the rain pretty much ruined my day today. I think this koko bakery is my new chill spot by then again, its kind of expensive here. 4.50 for a freakin tapioca drink compared to 2.99 in houston. T_T

It felt good today to have a good sleep because I've been staying up late a lot haha. GG =p but its all worth it though. I guess thats all I have to write for now. I'll update more on my adventures in ohio later I guess. I love driving around. especially in my uncles ride. feels so good driving a practically kind of new car. Infinity FX45. What a monster.

So yeah, lately, I've just traveled to ohio to work for my uncle. hopefully, this summer here in cleveland ohio will clear up all my debt. I'm looking forward to it.

It was so hard being here the first couple of days. I really wanted to come home and run away as fast as I could. But there was someone that helped make me feel better and I guess I'll stick it through. My sister was really encouraging to me on what I really wanted to do when I wanted to come home and just do summer school. But I guess it really was a rushed decision.  I really want to be in summer school though but I guess this is good for me though.

Lately, working has been really difficult. the hours are long and hard  and it gets kind of boring at times and being ABC (American Born Chinese) kind of sucks sometimes because my chinese isn't that good and I don't really know all the chinese dishes. But oh well. I'm counting on making tons of moola  

 

So yeah, its pretty good down here for me. Everyone loves me! I have tons of interesting stories to tell haha. But one thing is,

I miss the "H"

Here's some pictures of my uncles place in ohio. its extremely nice.

 

 

This is my ride that I drive around in Ohio all to myself! Shit is fast as hell. I like it a lot more than my car I'll tell you that for now lol. Infiniti FX45. 8 cylinder engine man. Shit is fckin powerful. But kills gas like crazy.

 

 

 

 

My room that I stay in haha. Theres a lot more pictures but ehh..this is it for now I guess haha.. Well its getting late . I'm gonna jet now. gonna update more I guess later on when I get a chance to explore around ohio. I work 6 days a week 10 hours a day so its pretty busy.

Aight. I'm out.

First off, congratulations to my home boy mark, my good friend . For his graduation from UH at last. Congratulations my friend.

Right now, I feel really good. I duno. Its most likely the liquor/alcohol thats cancelling out all my other emotions. But I feel really good an positive about everything right now. Hopefully, I can keep this positive attitude up and keep my postitive emotions in check without the liquor also. But right now. I feel good about everything whether it be good or bad. Especially <3.

ok..i'm going to have this by the end of the summer. thats my goal.  6 pack ftw.

Its been a while since I've made any real updates. This past weekend was my friend Jennifer Quach and Ben Trans birthday. It was pretty good. The cake that ben bought was extremely good. I lovedddd it. They all went clubbing at roxy afterwards. I wanted to go but couldn't =[.

Oh and the day before was my good friend quincy's birthday. He turned 22. Funny story, Victoria thought he was "25" and I knew he was turning 22 but somehow, she convinced me into thinking 25. Weirdo.  But I was right all along. Anyways, quincy's party was pretty good all around. I enjoyed the drinking part. I needed it I think. Been under a lot of stress lately. So yeah, the only downside during quincys party was when me and victoria got into a bit of a scuffle. urgh. i was so sad when that happened because I thought I was gonna lose her again but I'm glad that I talked to her and we sorted things out.

When we walked around the lake that day, it felt nice. It was good. I didn't want the time between us to end at all. <3

But all around,  quincy's party was good. hope he enjoyed the cake. haha. there was this crazy girl that got tossed into the pool and then like literally went crazy. man. she pissed me off from the way she acted. stupid drunk haha.

Man. I'm so irritated about school sometimes. This semester, I got a B in trig i think. hopefully, she'll bump it up to an A because like, 1 point difference but I dunno. We'll see. I could really use the A. and I dunno if I can get an A in my chinese class or not. hopefully I do. But ERRR stupid chem. gotta take it again. full of fail.

Lately, I feel as if I've experienced a role reversal. Victoria's got me head over heels for her. urgh. i feel so clingy and needy all the time haha. feels weird because i don't feel as masculine as before man. I always want to be with  her now and I'm wondering the majority of the day whats goin on with her. She's got me head over heels for her haha. she drives me crazy. but I deal with it <3 .

So last week was pretty big week. My uncle offered me a proposal I couldn't refuse to go to Ohio and work for him this entire summer. I'm leaving on May 20 and not gonna be back until July 25 Not gonnna be able to spend time with victoria or any of my friends .  But oh well. this will be an opportunity to get me out of debt.

Next semester, hopefully i can do good.this next semester. Anyways, I had a lot more I was gonna write. But I forgot majority of it due to multitasking. onto some pictures now haha.

Best picture everr

Quincy and Jeff

The super bi-polar dog that sometimes loved me , and then sometimes hated me -.-

The drinking group haha

Look at that beautiful cake

Birthday girll

Beautiful picture of DAe. She's so prettyy in here

Ben and I haha

Alan and his lovely girlfriend AMyyyy

Birthday boy and girl. The birthday boy is gay by the way hahahhaa...jk =]

Theres a lottt more pictures but I feel lazy so I'm going to just leave it at this =] goodnight people. I had a ton of stuff I was going to write but I forgot now haha.

I <3 victoria trixie (_ _ - _ _ _ _ _) Hoang.

Nothing will change the way I feel for you. Nuff Said.

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